HopeFul!!

I am hopeful that he will realize he is hurting himself. But with us seeing him like this hurts us. We always try to help but its just soo Addicting. And he is so addicted that he cant stop. He has stopped for like 5 months straight but one day he just started right back up again. I wish there was anything i could do for him to stop. He knows we love him. But he also knows he is killing us inside. Sometimes i cry my self to sleep knowing he will never stop and he will be severally hurt by it. But other times all i can do is PRAY for him to realize whats happening to him. He is so loving but once he starts back up he gets to into it and it seems like Satan has taken over him. Its hurts to know that a love one is so sick. All i can do know is just Hope and Pray that everything will be all right.


~ Dad if you read this, i want you to know i love you, But you really need help, We know you realize that drinking is horrible and We know you feel bad when it happens. But we also know why you start drinking. And thats from all your stress. All i am asking is To tell us when you are stressful we will help you, tell us if you need to talk to someone. I will always be here for you. I love you dad, and thats why i am doing this. Not because i am bored or something, because i want people to read this and Pray for you like me and our family prays for you every day~
I love you dad. And you know that. But your alcohol is taking over your body and killing you. Just remember that i am always here for you. And you will always be in my prayers..

What Shall I Do?

I can not believe that i am going to run for SBO Vice President!! I am so nervous. Truly I dont need to win at all. I just want to know that i actually accomplished something at Hillcrest Jr High School other than just learning something and coming to school. But i am so nervous for the skit. I know for sure i am doing it cause I am already in the listing thingy but I dont want to quit and Just want to have faith that i can face my FEAR BUT I DONT THINK I CAN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! UGHHHHH i had being Shy and Nervous.. Not only that but WE had Concert Choir Auditions today and of course i was way nervous so i was HORRIBLE on my audition.. Not only that there is only like 10 boys that are trying out which means like 20 girls will make it and there is like 90 people in my class and other kids that arent in choir that wnat to try out. I REALLY HOPE I MADE IT!!!!

CALLIE JOHNSON!!!!!

Callie Johnson, were do i begin. I love Callie with all my heart. We are always laughing and talking. I can truely trust her with my life. Callie i love how we share everything with each other. I also dont know what i would do if callie didnt like the same person as me because its bad enough everyone tells me that he is UGly but at least i have one of my best friends thinking he is hot too. HAHA seriously callie i love you and i always will. Dont forget that. And dont ever forget about Louis. I love how we are always on polyvore.com together.. WHICH IS THE BEST WEBSITE EVER.... WAY WAY WYA BETTER THAN MYSPACE, AND FACEBOOK, AND LIKE ANYTHING. ITS THE BEST. haha, if you have a problem with callie come take it out with me becuase no body messes with my callie. If you do you are messing with me. HAHAHAHAH just kidding i am not violent or mean at all. But still dont mess with us or just dont talk crap because if you talk crap that just shows us how immature you are. Callie i love you!!!

Emily McBride!!!!!!!

She is amazing. i love emily. No joke i can tell her anything. She is always there for me. I was so sorry for her when i found out that Adrianne McBride, her older sister had died in a car crash. It was like the worst thing ever. I sign on to MSN one day, taht day was February 8, 2009 my aunts birthday it was like 10:00 p.m. I sign on to messenger and see a offline message from Callie my other best friend saying that call me or text me or something emily really needs our help right now , can you come to her house toamrrow afterschool. At that moment i was freaking out i didnt know what to do because i checked my myspace and callie also sent me a comment saying the same thing and to call her. I was up to like 11:30 p.m. calling and texting callie to see what happened while i am freaking out. because callies saying on messenger was God be with the McBride family. It reached like 11:40 when i finally heard from callie and she sent me a text saying this morning emily's sister adrianne got in a car wreck and past away. At that moment i was bawling my eyes out, no joke. I told my mom and she was hurt because our family's are kind of close. It was the m;ost horrible day for me because i knew my cheerful, loud, friend emily is at home with her wholw family depressed crying. A few days later i called emily to see if she was doing okay and if they needed anything and if they did that we were the first person they can call even if it is like 3:00 in the morning. A called emily she seemed better but just by her voice i could tell that she was very depressed come on who wouldnt be. it was hard because she starting crying on the phone and i started crying because its hard hearing my best friend cry and nowing the reason why she is crying. Main story is Emily and McBride family. I am so deeply sorry for your lose. you know my family is always here for you and we love you all. They are doing better because they know taht Adrianne is in a better place. They also know that now Adrianne is their gardiun angel, looking down at them and with them every second wishing they would be happy and live their lifes happy. By the way Emily congrats because i know Melissa is pregnant and sh eis due like next week or so and thats just amazing. I am sure Brooklyn is going to be beautiful just like all of you guys. I love you emily and mcbride family.

LAKERS BABY!!!!

Like oh my gosh the bestest NBA team ever are totally the Los Angelos LAKERS. cant you tell i love them duh its my email address( lakers_lover_natalie@hotmail.com). I really love the lakers. Everyone always is like duh the lakers suck. serisouly give me detailed responses in why the lakers suck. I like the lakers because one, i love california and they are the california team other than the clippers but still, two they are just a reallly good team, three my grandma loves the lakers and she always had me watch games with her since i was little so i started watching the laker games and now i love them. The final reason i like the lakers is because number 18 is named Sasha Vujacic and he is way HOT!!!!! yes he might need to cut his hiar but really i dont get why people dont like his hair i think his hari is amazing. He always slicks it back during the games to make him look older becasue he is pretty young. he is 25 years old. Sasha is amazing at 3-pointers. He is also really good at defensing and is an amazing runner. He runs way fast and he is just plain hot. He doesnt really play a lot. When Kobe Bryant the best player on the team is in the game, the coach doesnt put sasha in because they have kobe in the game. but if Kobe is out they put Sasha in because he is good and the only one that is good so be in the game without Kobe in it. And when the coash puts Sasha and Kobe in the game together than the crowd goes crazy because no one can stop them now. they are just amazing. Also Pau Gasol, he is AMAZING. Him and Kobe have like secret moves and they pass the ball to each other and always have a plan to distract the other team. My main point is Lakers are my favorite nba team. And i want EVERYONE to read this part. Everyone thinks that I only think the Lakers are good. NOO tahts not true all the NBA teams are good but I am just a Fan of the LAKERS. SO STOP thinking i only like the lakers cause i dont.

Lucy Clark aka my RUBBER DUCKY

Most people always go around talking about oh my gosh i just made a new best friend. No sorry you didnt you might have made a friend but not a best friend. I dont think people know what the definition for Best Friends really means. I have three best friends that i love to death. They are Emily McBride, Callie Johnson, and Lucy Clark. I love all of them but lately i have been parting away from Lucy. I dont know if its cause she has changed ever since she got a new boyfriend or what. But all i know is that i need Lucy back. not the lucy that i have now because we are still close and best friends but i want the OLD lucy the funny, nice, doesnt care what other people think about her Lucy. Lucy if you are reading this please please please know i love you but you really need to know whats gonna happen, because i am not sure if i can be friends if its gonna end up how it is now. Lucy no matter what i still love you though. Lucy you know i care about you and i always will. Our great memories and our great friendship will last forever.. I love you and dont you ever forget that...